I came to Ren Xue 2015 when I found myself at a dead end.
Ever since my younger days I was haunted by overwhelming and consuming emotions such as anger and rage. I experienced ceaselessly anxiety, frustration, helplessness and powerlessness which in turn shove me to the edge of a cliff, where I only saw two options: to either shut down to complete numbness or be devoured by hopelessness and despair. I chose the former. Disconnecting from my feelings and from others, turning to alcohol, partying, emotional eating was the only solution strong enough for me to keep feeling nothing. I struggled with concentration and focus, keeping things in my memory was hard, so I never had good grades. Everything I did was never good enough. I needed to do better and become better. So I pushed myself which gave rise to people-pleasing syndrome, over-achieving and perfectionism.
I had a big heart and I cared so much—till exhaustion. And I’m not talking about the fulfilled-fall-asleep-after-contributing-and-dedicating-meaningfull-work exhaustedness, but the kind of stretched thin and depleted exhaustion that comes with trying and trying to still carry on with your commitments and keeping the facade up that you’re holding it all together. That others can truly rely on you. The pretending that you’re still good, all is under control. But I wasn’t happy. I was choking inside. I had became a pale shadow of who I used to be, living like an empty shell. I was chronically fatigued and depressed. That was the point where I knew that I had to massively change, and finally figure out what it was that I still did, or didn’t do, that kept me in this destructive cycle over and over again. What I realized was that I was killing the messengers. I was trying to avoid pain. I learned to kill the messengers because I feared what was behind their tidings. I felt scared of what to expect. I felt powerless. By killing the messengers I got a sense I could kill the message itself. It gave me a sense of power again, to regain control. I felt safe. But it was an illusion of control. An illusion of power. An illusion of safety.
The one thing I didn’t wanted to feel, was now the one thing I felt the most. Pain.
By killing the messengers the messages did not vanish into thin air. There was obviously an important message for me. Trying to kill all those messengers was exhausting. It was consuming my inner drive, and it was not getting me closer to killing the message.
Since 2015 my life has changed. Ren Xue helped me to find a way out of the never-ending-ever-repeating-detrimantel-ever-consuming-cycle I was caught up in. I realized it was time to stop killing the messengers. That it was time to discover my thoughts, emotions and behavior that were depleting me. It was time that I became the creator of my life again and change the direction that I was heading.
Today, I help others on their journey of exploration to find answers, to remove the barriers of what’s consuming their inner drive and to discover who they truly are. Zi Du Du Ren.
- 1: Theory of Qi, Tian Yuan & Di Yuan, Group Qi Healing
- 2: Theory of Shen/Consciousness, Ren Yuan & Xia Yuan, Individual Qi Healing
- Online Sessions
- Yuan Qigong
- Yuan Ming
ARE YOU READY TO:
BE CALM. BE CONFIDENT.
AND (FINALLY) BECOME HAPPY WITH WHO YOU ARE?
CLARITY – ACTION – FOLLOW THROUGH
Learn what it takes to take control back of your life and get your inner drive back.
Every day you face the same situation all over again, you're:
- Frustrated, annoyed and disappointed—from yourself and others around you
- Exhausted, tired and unmotivated—no wonder your whole daily agenda is so packed, that there’s not really room for yourself
- Anxious, restless and distracted—and if there's a small slot, you can’t enjoy it, cause you’re scattered all over the place
- Drive-less to take action and get your own things done—the energy that is left you need for your commitments, but then there’s nothing left for you
You’ve tried loads of other things, you’ve been working real hard on figuring out what is consuming you. But things simply don’t seem to be working and somehow you’re not getting the results you thought you would or move any closer to understanding it. You’ve been trying! But life feels like you're constantly trying to bail out the sinking boat without plugging the leak, and you don’t know how to break this vicious cycle of a life that you’ve never envisioned for yourself.
YOU ARE SO READY TO: Want Your Inner Drive, Feel The Calmness And Be "At Home" Again!
but the thing you wanted to avoid the most, is now the one thing you feel the most.
LET'S MOVE FORWARD TOGETHER. 'CAUSE YOU'LL MOVE FASTER THAN ALONE. I Can Be Your Exploration Partner. Hi, I'm Mirjam Blank.
I’ve helped caretakers all over the world take courageous action on what matters most to them: stop neglecting themselves and finally be the calm, confident and happy person that they once were and have control back of their life.
The secret I didn’t know but I’m going to share with you is this:
You don’t need more hard work, you need to face yourself with honesty and change your strategy.
ONCE I FACED MYSELF WITH HONESTY AND EMBRACED THE PAIN.
I started to change my strategies. I embraced that fear and avoiding pain served as a strong driver for the decisions I made and was steering my life. If you don’t really know where the pleasing-others syndrome, the perfecting, the over-performing, the pushing hard and the proving is coming from and why you do things repeatedly...If you’re not really able to SEE the root cause, the cycle never stops, and it will become nearly impossible to untangle the messy twisted downward spiral that is slowly but steadily consuming you.
It’s time to break out of this ever-repeating vicious cycle that is keeping you in this pale shadow version, and finally uncover the buried flame. I created Uniquely You. Uncover Yourself to support you to manifest internal clarity cause then there is no more being caught up in an ever-repeating vicious cycle, searching externally to find the solution and so much hard work.
ARE YOU READY TO CREATE WHAT IT ACTUALLY TAKES TO RECLAIM YOUR INNER FIRE?
You're in the right place. Let's get to know each other and reclaim your control!